It's been a long, long time since i last posted on here. a lot has changed during the past 8 months. i still receive treatment from the pa hospital, have a case manager, a psychologist and a physciatrist that i see there regularly. I have also started a program and treatment with a life promotion clinic at the griffith uni which delves into suicidal tendencies. The physciatrist i see there is wonderful so i am hoping that it will help.
I guess as far as the bipolar is concerned, not much has changed really. the meds cause a numbing effect so the extremes of the condition aren't as prevalent. Can't say that i particularly enjoy the numbness though.
I still have the regular thoughts about wanting to be here, last night was particularly bad. After a relatively good day and productive night, as soon as i tried to sleep i started crying. This then led to cutting my arm to release the pain. Decided just to stay up after that and go to the office. Once again i found myself sitting at a train station wondering how long i will endure this for and what the point of living is.
So we'll see where the day takes me. Have an appointment with my psychologist this afternoon so that should be interesting.
Next post soon!!
